Sunday, September 4, 2011

Bobby Womack Called And He Wants To Tell You Something...

I wanna dedicate this song to all the lovers tonight
And I expect that might be the whole world
Because everybody needs something or someone to love
....If You Think You're Lonely Now, 1981

I thought last year was about lessons.

It wasn't. It was about being prepared to grow.

Wait. Isn't that a lesson?

Yes, I guess it is.

About 20 years ago, I made a decision to spend every year learning something different. I don't know why, at 18, this seemed so important, but it did.

I have studied religions, languages, the Vietnam War, presidential elections, water rights in third world countries and architecture.

You name it, and I've either spent a year learning about it, or I want to.

My friends call me 'The Oracle', but in reality, I'm just a girl who thinks the world is inspirational.

I never want to be complacent in my own life.

Last year I went out and met people I might not have otherwise found a reason to engage.

Some I have loved, others I have not. But in all of the cases, I have learned.

I have had an opportunity to be a friend to some people and had them return the kindness and we've all grown from the experience.

I have watched people write about their feelings but not talk about them; I've seen people act out their feelings and not accept that they are not being fair to those around them.

And I have learned.

I have learned what it means to say you're someone's friend and actually live the words. It is life-changing.

There have been a couple of times recently where I have been asked to 'be there' and each time, I have surprised myself by how willing I was to do it.

Last year, I hesitated because I worried about how things would look. Now?

When you know the truth about something, maybe that makes it easier to act. Or maybe I just made that up.

I'm finishing off a series on love on AFF because it feels like my class there is about to graduate.

And I think that is amazingly wonderful.


BenSmarty said...

I want to be validictorian. Or at least give a commencement speech ;)

Anonymous said...

You've gone back to aff? that makes me a little sad. I hope that is misplaced.

I stopped learing long ago, it isn't easy life keeps trying to teach me stuff but my ignorance is strong.

BubblevishiousDeux said...

@Smarty: You definitely can be Valedictorian.

I want to be the chick sitting in the back sneaking a beer, planning out where we go next.

@Celect: No worries, it is not a long term thing. This is home. that other place just needed to be used for something I wanted to say.


Chris said...

Every single day is an opportunity to learn and grow..even if it's just learning about new people we've met and growing a new friendship.

I'll sit in the back with you and drink a beer :-D Ceremonial events bore the crap out of me. They only single the end of a certain phase, life moves on immediately after the mics turned off lol

Failed Promise said...

Hey, I'm glad to see you post here again. I read you still on AFF, of course, but I like it here better. I'm with Celect on that. Did you see he has moved to Wordpress? I've linked to his blog (and to yours, too, I hope you don't mind).

I have to admit that lately I'm feeling like I am completely *over* love. It ends up hurting too much. Of course, I have mostly put myself into situations which are unworkable, so I really need to spend some time examining that. I guess that can be the focus of the fall and winter months. I hope to be ready to open up again in spring. You know, with the fever?

P.S. Celect is full of it when he says he stopped learning long ago. What a silly fellow!

P.P.S. I'll be in the lobby, drinking for two. Nah, it's Kings of Leon, not me.

BubblevishiousDeux said...

@Chris: LOL! How did you know that is how I spent my graduation afternoon? Sitting in the bleachers with my Marine Corps recruiter, having a beer and listening to him say: Bubbles, you don't want to go to boot camp. Get your ass to college. Wise man. :)

@Promise: I like it here better, too! Thank you for telling me Celect is blogging on WP! I'm on it!

I'm always thinking it would be nice to be 'over' love, then something weird happened:

I fell in love with me. I don't even know when it happened, but I swear Paris had something to do with it. All of a sudden, life seemed so, I don't know, open.

And I wish I could have understood it earlier in life, but maybe that just wasn't meant to be.

I'm grateful I'm here now, with all of you to help me with your words!

Riff Dog said...

Well, so long as I get invited to the party after graduation . . .

BubblevishiousDeux said...

@Riff: You're invited! You can sit in the back and have beers with the bad kids.

Kidfos said...

Wait, does that mean the class get a graduation party?

Also following you more here than on AFF, though if missing a post on the other site means repeating a year I shall scurry on over and catch up!

Love is to esoteric. Lust on the other hand. ...

BubblevishiousDeux said...

@Kid: No my fave Manchesterite, no need to go over there. I'm moving back here with the graduates. :)

I'll post the 'love' series here because I'd love some Google feedback. :)

Oh, and I booked my Paris trip! Same time as this year, but next. :)