Sunday, July 10, 2011

The Road Has Got Me Hypnotized...

And I'm spinning into a new sunrise...
"Radar Love', Golden Earring.

I was showering this morning when it finally hit me:

I'm an athlete.

I'm not fast; or built in a traditional way; I don't come by running, biking or swimming easily; and sometimes I have no idea what I'm doing...

But I'm an athlete.

In coming to sports later in life, maybe there is just a bit more of an appreciation for just how much one has to juggle to fit it all in.

My schedule looks crazy. Everything that I eat has to play a role in giving me energy, or recovery or whatever. But it's making eating so much easier for some reason for the first time ever. The stress of regular life has to take a back seat because otherwise, it will affect training.

When I was running a few years ago, I always downplayed the work. Oh, sure, I'm a 'runner', but hey, anyone can do it.

Or so I kept saying. And on many levels it is true.

But this time around feels new. For the first time, this isn't about someone else's splits, it's about mine. It has little to do with someone else telling me I can do it. But it has everything to do with knowing, on my own, that I can. It's so very scary to be accountable to yourself, but it's also quite empowering. Today, I could feel the strut before I realized it was happening. Yeah, I just finished another 10 miles on the bike. And yes, I do have 6 days of training planned next week. Watch. Me. Work. It.

I have a friend who is training for one of the same triathlons I am doing. He says my enthusiasm is infectious. This from a 'real' Ironman.

Something tells me he'd say I'm the real deal, too. His coaching is a tremendous motivation. And I try to remember to tell him all the time. Hell, your motivation (yes you, out there) is even more inspiring. Thank you.

My heart broke this week in a way I never thought possible. The more I write about 'The One', the more I was missing him. And the more I continue where 'we' are at the moment, the more I just want to train. Am I training away a person or a thing? No, not at all. I’m training ‘in’ myself.

Train. Goodbye. Grow. Start all over until the goodbye part is gone.

Yeah, this can be done.

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Dreamer said...

Great news that this is working for you. So healthy too.

BubblevishiousDeux said...

@Dreamer: I'm a big goal setter. Sometimes, I allow myself to get distracted, never a good thing. When I have something in the horizon to reach for, I find that I'm capable of getting through most things. Thankfully.

Chris said...

I'm sure the time on the road or in the pool gives you plenty of time to think but the good part I'm guessing is you're wiped out enough at the end it's easier to say "the hell with it I'm too tired" lol That and focusing on finishing at some point sorta forces a person to focus on that more one would think too. I'm so glad to hear you're enjoying your're gonna be a super hard body soon !! :-)

BubblevishiousDeux said...

@Chris: I love the road, the trails, the pool lanes, you know it! I may even start to bike to work. Who is this person? :) Oh, she's me. I have to say: Thank you, Chrispy! Your guidance in the pool arena is so much more appreciated than I can explain!

AL said...

Good for you girl!

For me, training helps the world make sense. Except for when I swim, I have a chance to think things through and my thoughts seem so much more clear.

Hooray for exorcise!

BubblevishiousDeux said...

@Al: Yes! It does make the world make sense. It puts order where there is none. I think that's why I like

I think that's also why I like solo training so much.

I can really think. :)