Wednesday, June 15, 2011

When You Were Young And Your Heart...

Was an open book...

Oh, wait, I hope to never see the phrase 'I'm an open book', ever again.

I am sure I will, but I bet I will always be traumatized by it to some extent. Nope, nevermind. Just annoyed. I don't traumatize easily.

I spent the weekend playing catch-up with my life. I really had no idea how much I was leaving undone until I had to focus on a number of things all at once.

You know...the sister with the assorted problems; my daughter's friend who is now living with us after her mother kicked her out over the weekend; 'The Prince'; writing, more writing.

My good friend, 'The Writer', and I talked on Sunday. I truly love this guy. He and I are in similar, yet different, places if that makes any sense.

I think that over the past year or so, we've told each other a million things and what's great about him is that he never hesitates to tell me when I am being foolish. What's even more interesting is that unlike most people, I actually listen to him.

He tells me I need to write. He also tells me that I have a talent. I hear him, yet I keep getting sidetracked between the present and the past in terms of what to write. What I want to do is take off three months and hide away in some little place and write by day and stalk the streets at night. However, the particular gig doesn't pay well. Go figure.

I bought 'Renaissance' a present this weekend. A book. Yes, I am so clever. It seemed like an easy purchase and yet he seems very hard to buy things for because his taste is impeccable and he probably just gets what he needs or wants when he feels like it.

I don't think this guy could lie if I paid him, so when he says he loves the gift....he must.

I've got a story to tell about running. Maybe that's where I'll start next.

Oh, and in the grand scheme of things, being a sex-site drop-out is fucking fantastic. That's right, not even Smarty's famous "Just one more thing" can get me to go back to AFF.

Sorry, Smarty. I still heart you.

13 comments:

Chris said...

So you're officially retired from Ye Olde Fooksite ?? :-D Seems like it is about that time for you...you need a few months off at the VERY least lol

You've got plenty of time to write when you feel the inspiration until then go for a swim in the ocean oh and dive through a few for fun...it really is like getting a natural roller massage I love that :-)

Unknown said...

@Chris: Yes, sir! It was a great run. I met some wonderful people there. You included. :)

But man, enough of the drunks, freaks and weirdos. Okay, the freaks were okay. ;)

I'm swimming soon enough! No beaches are open for open water swim yet. WTF? I live in the wrong state.

Free said...

I notice your absent and will miss your proses.
I hope to find you here as much.

iamkionda said...

As long as you are still writing it's all good no matter where you are. :)

Lisa said...

What?

*blank stare*

You mean a needy, self-obsessed harpy who indulges in delusional TMI?

Never heard of her.

Heehee

Whatevs....we all got you here to listen to what you have to say. :-D

Writing will come to you. And we'll be here, cheering you on. :-)

BenSmarty said...

I'm not saying anything.

Unknown said...

@Free: You can't get rid of me that easily! No way. :) Besides, we still have a virtual date planned!

@Kionda: It does feel that way! Oh, I just read that people who write, with a pen and a paper, actually turn on special parts of their brains! Did you already know this?

@Lisa: I know, right? TMI is right! Just ugh. I did tell Smarty that we should have sent the librarian flowers this weekend. You see, a year ago, we crashed her party and I met some of my closet friends. Surely that deserves something, right? :)

@Smarty: What? No way! That says it all!

Celect said...

So you've left aff for ever and ever for reals? that sucks. I will have to make the long arduous journey over here more often.

Free said...

Oh yes, our date. I'm here patiently waiting, knowing that's a virtue and a character builder.
Hope springs eternal.
I glad to know Smarty is still commenting.
Back to being virtuous.

Unknown said...

@Celect: I have! I almost didn't believe it either, then I hit the delete account button and 'poof'!

Come visit whenever you can. I promise to at least attempt to be a good read. Oh! And you are cute! I'd never seen you before just now!

@Free: Wait, being virtuous is a good thing? How come I never seem to get any perks? :) HEY! Does that mean my virture is not intact?

iamkionda said...

No I didn't know that. To be honest, I've been resorting to my electronic forms of journaling more often. I need to hit the pages again. I just wish that I wrote as fast as I typed. Lol.

Free said...

In Chinese philosophy virtue is a sense of "personal character; inner strength; integrity.
So your virtue is totally intact.
"I maybe one of your perks", he said with a mischievous grin.

Unknown said...

@Kionda: I know! Or, I wish I had an intern to take my writings and type them up!

@Free: I DO have virtue! Hot. Damn!

And I LOVE perks.